Caged

As of late I've been feeling quite like a caged animal. It's an anxiety I feel in my chest. I need to get out, away, something.

Right now is one of those times. It's incredibly frustrating. Currently my room is one big trash hole after an unsuccessful attempt to arrange my room differently. I cannot get any work done because I see the mess and get all anxious... then I want to clean it... but I don't have the time and I'm just going to tear it apart again in a few days when I get a chance to change it around.

Because my room is so messy it's easy to bump into something. Nothing is accessible. Right now my chair is on top of a stack of papers to be filed away. My living room is not much better. It just feels smaller then usual. Zack and Shelby just moved in; so now there are 4 people in the apt. I can feel it shrink. No one's fault, it just is. I need to get out of Indiana for a bit.

Also, the loudness is bothering me. I'm getting the beginning of a migraine I suppose. Sensitivity towards the loud morons outside at the bar, the ufc fighting, the sound of my keyboard!

The dirtiness and the amount of shit I need to get done is just stressful. Mainly the clutter. I need to do some readings. But my head is a fog and my stomach is a knot.

Why do I bring this on myself? How do I stop the endless cycle. What a mess I am.

Things that make me happy

This is basically a list of websites over the past few months that have made me laugh.

Do you have enemies? Do your enemies have hamsters?
It makes me laugh, cry, and jaw drop in horror

All bunnies do is hump!
Think of their spawn...

Educating Grandma
Big black dildo

What would happen if you happened to buy 25 bottles of NyQuil?
Her writing is addicting

We should have been the fighting squirrels.
They're so badass

Cute Japanese kids dressed as pirates, singing, and dancing
= love

Khaaaaaaaaaaan
Katamari

In my world, everyone's a pony!
ahhhhhhhh

Natalie Portman
I never said I was a role model

Another singing asian child
I want to do this song karaoke

Dancing gingerbread man
To can't touch this!

A Canadian study of spiders reactions to drugs
Of course

Rollin' VIP
Life comes at you fast

Best fall down ever
Fast forward to 1 minute

I'm fucking Seth Rogan
He's so happy


Enjoy.

Aramark is Evil

I found this little gem today on the IUP website.

Oh Aramark. Just another way to cut costs ruthlessly. And then claim it's for the good of the environment.

Ok, I admit it kind of is. But I know the company too well to actually believe that this choice was based off concern of the environment. Less trays means less money on water (the dishwashers use an incredible amount of water), less money wasted on employee hours (Aramark hates paying people), and apparently 24% less food wasted. They say other schools are doing it too! Who wants to be bet those schools' food service is also Aramark?

Aramark has never been concerned with anything except the bottom line (I could go on and on...). So while I'm happy that at least we will be making an impact, albeit a small one, I am just skeptical.

Ranting Mood

It has come to my attention the Facebook applications that I used to associate with humor now is just breeding ground from 15 year old hopeless romantics and jesus freaks. I don't like it.

From Facebook Flair:
"nick jonas's girlfriend": No. You're. Not. Stop being a delusional little brat and do something with your life. He's not even that hot. And I ask you, does he know what to do with any household tool, ie. monkey wrench; I doubt it.

"with every kiss; and every hug you make me; fall in love": Gag me. Not only is this incredibly retarded, it is also improper grammar. Yes, I know, coming from me. But that is just wrong. I hope they suffer a terrible dramatic breakup, which they will, because they are 15 and hormonal.

"WWJT What Would Jesus Text?" Nothing, actually. I betcha that fun loving Jesus of the Old Testament that you all scorn gays because of would also see technology as the devil. You're going to hell.

"I have random conversations with an imaginary Nick Jonas" Oh......... my... My only regret is I have no idea how many of these flairs have been sent, though I'm guessing a lot since it was only on page 27. Scary.

"I do whatever my rice crispies tell me to": hilarious

Secret Confession

I have a secret confession: I am addicted to Martha Stewart.

I am a food nut and her recipes make my tummy go woo! Coconut souffles!? Asparagus, snap pea, and avocado pasta! Mint, cucumber, and vodka cocktail! How does one even do that!? Cucumbers with your booze, unheard of.

And the weirdest thing to date i have seen on her website: Pear Rosemary Cocktail. Rosemary, really? I need to try it!

One time I watched a solid three hours of "Good Things" video clips. Terrible, I know. But seriously, would wouldn't watch her make fresh margaritas! Bitch knows her alcohol.

Paranoid or feasible?

I think of everything the government has become. All the lies and deception. And the thought pops into my head.

Public schools have been horribly underfunded for quite some time now. What if that's the plan? The government holds the purse strings. I can totally see purposely underfunding schools as something that the government would do to keep their power. True education breeds minds that don't just take orders. But that's what the government thrives on; total control without someone saying... wait, what? If the government kept school funding low, obviously students would not be getting as good of an education as they should be. There would be less programs and teachers would not be as intelligent as they should be.

Currently, there aren't many benefits to teaching other then the small possibility of changing some lives. Teachers get treated like crap; they aren't paid what they're worth, they're belittled by students , their benefits are slipping away, support staff is more or less non-existent, and they easily can get sued in this greedy day-in-age. Currently I hold a 1 million dollar liability policy so I can student teach. And that's the minimum required by law.

The government is slowly allowing the schooling of this country go down the shitter. On purpose? My point here is that without true education we are becoming a society of morons who just listen to what our government tells us. We take no action. We were not taught to fight for what we believe in; or to think for that matter. And that's great for the government. It keeps those rich kids from good, private schools in power. Of course the occasional person of power comes from an underfunded school. But the majority rules, and the majority are easily manipulated because of said underfunding.

Education in this country is not valued, which to me is odd. We claim ourselves to be number one in the world. We're the best! At everything! But we're breeding idiots.

If we want to stay on top, it starts with education.

If we want to bring peace to this world (which I think a loftier goal), it starts with education.

Sometimes I fantasize what the world would be like if we took per year attacking our neighbors and put it towards education. The result would be mind blowing.

That love thing

Love can't really be described in words without using a metaphor, simile, or action. Here's a list of stuff that is love, to me.

• helping me wash the dishes, without me having to ask (why? because then I know my partner cares enough about me to get off his ass and help me)
  
• that goofy feeling I get right about where my ribs come together (fuck the heart)
• thinking your love's "flaws" are adorable
• when in a conversation, you listen, instead of just waiting to talk
• ability to compromise
• being able to "get down" with your partner despite mutual morning breath
  
• silence is not uncomfortable